Breaking Down

I don't know why I write here sometimes. My wife is the only one that reads it. And Drs really don't care about these details. Its not an effective venting ground. I guess its my little "Proof" that I knew what was going on in the event that my HA1C comes back high and the Dr wants to scold me.

Look.
This damn BG keeps blowing up the meter when I'm awake. My sinuses are faintly sore and my left eye is still hurting from a Pan retinal Photocoagulation procedure. In the morning I felt fine, but was pretty darn rushed and didn't check my BG. I gradually felt like crap and when I did check (~11am) it was 342mg/dL.

What is this shit? Seriously. This is completely ridiculous. I'm stressed and exhausted and I just want it to stop sucking. I worked so F&*KING hard to keep it under control and months and now this last month before I get my HA1c checked, it goes bonkers and I'll never know if my numbers actually got better. All the docs will see is crap the whole way through.

Well fuck you doctor. And fuck you diabetes. I'm eating my fucking lunch anyway.